I've always had a bit of a strange relationship with the circle of friends I am closest to. I thought things had changed when I moved off to college, but as time goes on I see patterns reemerging.
Often I find that I am some crazy force of adhesion. I have a knack for pulling friends together for a small gathering or mini-reunion, at least, when nobody has anything better to do. Sometimes it fails horribly, but I think they usually go pretty well. Perhaps it's only because I have the highest initiative (hah!) among these groups, or perhaps I have some quality that allows me to do this. I'm not sure, honestly.
Despite this though, I feel like I always end up being the smallest voice in a group. I am the butt of most jokes. Nobody gives any credence to my ideas or opinions. Nobody takes me seriously. Nobody takes my side.
This only happens when I'm in a group, but it's a repeat occurrence. So now I have to wonder, what is it about myself, what aspect of my personality causes people to behave this way toward me? Why?
And the gender jokes. I am so tired of them. I'm fine with them up to a point, but there's just too many. After awhile they just make me seethe. They make me want to fucking hole up in my house and never talk to people again.
And my god, the unsolicited advice. I've always had a bit of trouble accepting advice from others. As a matter of fact, few things aggravate me more than unsolicited advice. I suffer from a pretty bad case of "fuck you don't tell me what to do." This isn't to say that I'm so arrogant that I never take anyone's advice period, I can think of many times which I have, but they're more often than not occasions in which I asked for a second opinion. I recognize that such things are usually well-intentioned, but personally, I just think there are some instances in which people just shouldn't offer advice, especially on topics in which they are not educated or experienced. You don't know better than me.
Do I expect too much of people? I feel like I get treated like shit more often than I deserve, but I don't know if I'm in the right or if I'm just being a bitch or something.
Often I find that I am some crazy force of adhesion. I have a knack for pulling friends together for a small gathering or mini-reunion, at least, when nobody has anything better to do. Sometimes it fails horribly, but I think they usually go pretty well. Perhaps it's only because I have the highest initiative (hah!) among these groups, or perhaps I have some quality that allows me to do this. I'm not sure, honestly.
Despite this though, I feel like I always end up being the smallest voice in a group. I am the butt of most jokes. Nobody gives any credence to my ideas or opinions. Nobody takes me seriously. Nobody takes my side.
This only happens when I'm in a group, but it's a repeat occurrence. So now I have to wonder, what is it about myself, what aspect of my personality causes people to behave this way toward me? Why?
And the gender jokes. I am so tired of them. I'm fine with them up to a point, but there's just too many. After awhile they just make me seethe. They make me want to fucking hole up in my house and never talk to people again.
And my god, the unsolicited advice. I've always had a bit of trouble accepting advice from others. As a matter of fact, few things aggravate me more than unsolicited advice. I suffer from a pretty bad case of "fuck you don't tell me what to do." This isn't to say that I'm so arrogant that I never take anyone's advice period, I can think of many times which I have, but they're more often than not occasions in which I asked for a second opinion. I recognize that such things are usually well-intentioned, but personally, I just think there are some instances in which people just shouldn't offer advice, especially on topics in which they are not educated or experienced. You don't know better than me.
Do I expect too much of people? I feel like I get treated like shit more often than I deserve, but I don't know if I'm in the right or if I'm just being a bitch or something.
